This may sound peculiar coming from a girl who embodies the Hispanic culture but I am utterly confused by the word culture. What does it exactly mean? I am not referring to the general sense of the word, which to most is exhibiting what your ethnicity or country is but what it really means both connatatively and denotatively. The dictonary has many definitions for the word CULTURE. One being: the quality in a person or society that arises from a concern for what is regarded as excellent in arts, letters, manners, scholarly pursuits, etc. or a particular form or stage of civilization, as that of a certain nation or period. In that sense I embody the Hispanic culture simply because I can speak and write in Spanish while keeping up with the latest media, be it news, NOVELAS, or music. Also doesn't hurt the fact that I can cook Guatemalan and Salvadorean dishes! The thing which bothers me though, is the classification. I don't really think I am the quintessential Hispanic girl. Let's see... I have been told that I am WHITE-WASHED and an HONORARY ASIAN.
Now, you're wondering where did honorary asian come from, right? Well, let me tell you. I grew up in a community consisting of well...mostly Asians. My whole block had only Chinese neighbors until recently. My block now contains three Hispanic families, including mine. Even in school, I did not have many Hispanic friends. Yes, a few here and there but being in the advanced classes since I was 7, I did not have the opportunity to meet many. At my elementary school, there is this test which one must attain one hundred percent to qualify into the G.A.T.E program. I believe it stands for the Gifted & Talented Education Program! Wooh~ Anyways, only three Hispanics were in that class... the friends I made are with me now. We went together from there to middle school and now ending high school. From the bunch, only two are coming with me for our next journey... COLLEGE! So...I always hanged out in their houses and them in mine. This is how I am the being I am now. The addicted to korean/ japanese/ taiwanese/ spanish dramas. Yes, even music and film. Gosh, I even visit the websites with the latest news and gossip. This earns me my honorary asian title because it seems that I can at times know more about what's occuring in the Asia world than my friends. I think its my obsession with dramas, which spur this oddity. Oh well. I am who I am.
In this entire tantrum I threw, one thing is clear. Culture is just a word. Why this created a hurricane in my mind... I don't know but I know that no matter what. I will be well..... ME.
Thank You for staying with me and my very long explanation of what I was thinking at the time. You guys are amazing :)